No, I Can't Let Go of You

It has been way too long peeps..... So what is going on in my life now?

First I will start with the end of school. So I go home in like 4 days and I am both excited and extra sad. I am excited because of LT! I can't wait to spend the summer growing in my faith, getting to know the others that are going with me, and just being in a such an awesome place as I do both of those things. It is gonna be a great summer and I am ready for it. But I am really sad too. Why? Because I am leaving so many people. ISU has become my home. I mean, when I go back to Skokie I LOVE seeing everyone but something doesn't feel the same. So I am gonna miss so many people from school. And of course I am gonna miss that special someone. Yall know who I am talking about. Ha. I would say that it's affecting me for real. Just the thought of going the whole summer....... Yeah, just a lot to handle. But I know that God will help me get past it and give me a heart that is completely set on Him.

So, speaking of that special someone....... Ha. Yeah, things are good. She obviously knows and there is a 90% chance that she will be seeing this post at some point. I don't post these things to make you feel awkward (even though you're not an awkward person)! Just for the record. But yeah..... It has been like two weeks since she said she didn't return the same feelings and I have come A LONG way. I am doing so much better. I am completely satisfied with our friendship and just glad that my feelings for her really changed nothing between us. Things are just great right now. Sure, there are times when I am feeling down about it, but we all go through things like this. I truly believe that I get so down because my feelings were so unexpected. I really thought that God was calling me to her because something was meant to happen. I guess that's what happens when you go all in. The more you sacrifice, the more you have to lose. But anyways........ It is something that I can handle (right.......). If you ever want the full details of what I have been going through, just ask; I will most likely be willing to tell you.

So what else is there? Since it's been a while since my last post I feel like I need to post a really long one. Hmmm..... So it is finals week and I am once again sick for the second straight semester. Like really? Right when I'm about to take 4 exams? It's whatever. I am gonna tough it out and soon I will be home (joy and sadness). I am sitting here writing this and it is currently 2:49 AM. I mean, if I'm sick, shouldn't I be sleeping???? I'm dumb and I accept that :)

So I guess that is all I have for now. I will try to keep up with posting sooner so I get important things written. I will def keep you all posted once I get to LT. I can't wait to share everything that God is doing once I'm there.

NIGHT YALL!!!!!!! =D

Can't Let Go - Landon Pigg