So I am home for Thanksgiving break. It's cool to be back and see my best friends. I am so happy that I got to see Matt the first night that I got here. But I am still really sad that I am away from school. I miss my Cornerstone friends. I miss my bestie Nicole. And of course.... I miss my beautiful girlfriend Rachael. This school year has been better than any year I have ever had. Life is so good. God has truly blessed my life and I don't understand why. But I will not complain! :D Life is great.
That is all I have for you :)
The Good King - Seabird
Friday, November 18, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
I'll Do What I Want, Cause This Is My Life
Awake and Alive - Skillet
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Who Do You Think You Are?
It has been wayyyy too long since I posted a lot of info for my followers. So I shall talk to you all for a bit....
I have now been at school for 3 weeks. But classes have been going on for two. The first week of classes was very up and down. I was not enjoying my classes. Dealing with personal stuff. I had been so excited to be back but school was not living up to my expectations. By the end of the week things had gotten better. Friday night of that week I went to a root beer kegger with a bunch of my church friends. I could not have had a better time. Although a lot has happened since, I shall jump into something else....
Hanging with my Cornerstone (my church) peeps for the past two weekends has been phenomenal. Many college students assume that the way to have fun is by drinking and waking up with a hangover the next day. Why? I hang out with people without drinking and I still have a blast. And then I wake up in the morning feeling great without the slightest hint of a headache. That is how I should be spending my weekends. With close friends. No alcohol. My first semester in college I loved to party. I was so certain that partying was the only way to have fun. I have been shown time and time again how completely wrong I was.
Special shout out to Matt Lohmeyer (who does not read my blog). This guy right here is freakin awesome and I am really upset that it took till first semester of sophomore year to truly get to hang with him. You rock Matt!!!
So what else has been goin on..... I have been dealing with some personal things as of late. Coming to school all of the crap I was dealing with was so strong and very annoying. I was very upset and couldn't manage to deal with it all. How times heals. I am in such a better place right now. Things are finally going well and I didn't even get what I want. That is how I know God is good. Cause when you rely on Him, he can make something out of nothing. What seems like a hopeless situation can be turned around as long as you truly trust Him to take care of you. Trust in God. He knows all and He knows best.
That is just a little about my life as of right now.... I am loving school. Loving my friends. It is definitely going to be a great year :)
Imma peace out! Deuces!
Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri
I have now been at school for 3 weeks. But classes have been going on for two. The first week of classes was very up and down. I was not enjoying my classes. Dealing with personal stuff. I had been so excited to be back but school was not living up to my expectations. By the end of the week things had gotten better. Friday night of that week I went to a root beer kegger with a bunch of my church friends. I could not have had a better time. Although a lot has happened since, I shall jump into something else....
Hanging with my Cornerstone (my church) peeps for the past two weekends has been phenomenal. Many college students assume that the way to have fun is by drinking and waking up with a hangover the next day. Why? I hang out with people without drinking and I still have a blast. And then I wake up in the morning feeling great without the slightest hint of a headache. That is how I should be spending my weekends. With close friends. No alcohol. My first semester in college I loved to party. I was so certain that partying was the only way to have fun. I have been shown time and time again how completely wrong I was.
Special shout out to Matt Lohmeyer (who does not read my blog). This guy right here is freakin awesome and I am really upset that it took till first semester of sophomore year to truly get to hang with him. You rock Matt!!!
So what else has been goin on..... I have been dealing with some personal things as of late. Coming to school all of the crap I was dealing with was so strong and very annoying. I was very upset and couldn't manage to deal with it all. How times heals. I am in such a better place right now. Things are finally going well and I didn't even get what I want. That is how I know God is good. Cause when you rely on Him, he can make something out of nothing. What seems like a hopeless situation can be turned around as long as you truly trust Him to take care of you. Trust in God. He knows all and He knows best.
That is just a little about my life as of right now.... I am loving school. Loving my friends. It is definitely going to be a great year :)
Imma peace out! Deuces!
Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri
Thursday, August 25, 2011
What Were We Made For
I like people who understand how I feel. But it makes it much better when they not only understand how you feel, but are feeling the same in their own lives.
What Were We Made For - Saosin
What Were We Made For - Saosin
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Breathe In Deeper Now
Hey everyone.....
So I realize that I haven't done a very good job at keeping up with posts and letting you all know whats going down at LT and I'm sorry for that. I now realize what "hard" truly is. I can't seem to manage my time well at all. Work is always a buzz kill. Hanging with people is great but it's hard to coordinate schedules sometimes. LT is extra frustrating and I most definitely was not expecting all of this.
The truth is..... I MISS ISU!!! For the past week all I have been talking about is how I want to go back to school. Sure, LT is a blast and I am loving it even with all of the trials. But there was something about my first year of college that made everything so much better even if there were many trials and sufferings there as well.
There are two awesome things that I want to share with all of you though. Well actually one since they are pretty much the same thing. So last Wednesday, for project day we had an 8 hour God time at the Newport News Park. Going into 8 hours I figured it would be impossible. I have never spent that much time with God. And during that time we were told to fast as well so we skipped breakfast and lunch. If you didn't know, I get sick VERY easily when I don't eat anything so I wasn't sure I would make it. But I realized that God will always suffice. I just prayed when I got hungry or anything like that and He totally took care of me. So I realized that if I truly depend on God to help me He will come through.
SECOND! Ever stop to look at God's beautiful creation or look at the animals running around as if it were the first day for them in the world??? Yes! That is one of the many ways that I spent time with God on Wednesday. I did a lot of walking and got to see MANY beautiful things. Saw many squirrels. Saw deer eating. Saw the way that the trees block just enough sunlight to make your walk comfortable. Crossed a bridge over this body of water as the angled sunlight hit it perfectly. I did a lot of reflecting and God's creation finally became something that was evident and oh so amazing. I am grateful that God gave me the opportunity to see what He has created.
Just a little of how amazing God has been. Anyway, I am tired and will stop writing for now. I will most likely post a little sooner next time at an earlier time so I can write more and think clearly.
God Bless! :)
Do Not Move - David Crowder Band
So I realize that I haven't done a very good job at keeping up with posts and letting you all know whats going down at LT and I'm sorry for that. I now realize what "hard" truly is. I can't seem to manage my time well at all. Work is always a buzz kill. Hanging with people is great but it's hard to coordinate schedules sometimes. LT is extra frustrating and I most definitely was not expecting all of this.
The truth is..... I MISS ISU!!! For the past week all I have been talking about is how I want to go back to school. Sure, LT is a blast and I am loving it even with all of the trials. But there was something about my first year of college that made everything so much better even if there were many trials and sufferings there as well.
There are two awesome things that I want to share with all of you though. Well actually one since they are pretty much the same thing. So last Wednesday, for project day we had an 8 hour God time at the Newport News Park. Going into 8 hours I figured it would be impossible. I have never spent that much time with God. And during that time we were told to fast as well so we skipped breakfast and lunch. If you didn't know, I get sick VERY easily when I don't eat anything so I wasn't sure I would make it. But I realized that God will always suffice. I just prayed when I got hungry or anything like that and He totally took care of me. So I realized that if I truly depend on God to help me He will come through.
SECOND! Ever stop to look at God's beautiful creation or look at the animals running around as if it were the first day for them in the world??? Yes! That is one of the many ways that I spent time with God on Wednesday. I did a lot of walking and got to see MANY beautiful things. Saw many squirrels. Saw deer eating. Saw the way that the trees block just enough sunlight to make your walk comfortable. Crossed a bridge over this body of water as the angled sunlight hit it perfectly. I did a lot of reflecting and God's creation finally became something that was evident and oh so amazing. I am grateful that God gave me the opportunity to see what He has created.
Just a little of how amazing God has been. Anyway, I am tired and will stop writing for now. I will most likely post a little sooner next time at an earlier time so I can write more and think clearly.
God Bless! :)
Do Not Move - David Crowder Band
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Help Is On the Way
OH! MY! GOSH! It has been toooo long!
So I have been at LT (Leadership Training) for two weeks. It has been so awesome! I am having such a great time having a summer dedicated to God. So what exactly have I done while being here? Well we have 3 scheduled things each week. We have one session on Monday night where we worship and have a speaker. I love those nights because worship is SOOOO amazing and gaining more knowledge about the word is what I want to do. I will skip past Wednesday and go to Thursday since it is the same thing as Monday. We go to two different churches though which is what supplies the difference. Monday night at Grace Church and Thursday night at Hilltop. But the busiest day would have to be Wednesday. PROJECT DAY! This is a day devoted to serving, God time, and just doing whatever will help us grow with God and with ourselves. I am always so tired after our day is over but it is so worth it. This past Wednesday my group went to a church to help like clean up and stuff. Once we got there, we split into even smaller groups so we could get certain tasks done. My group had to pull weeds and totally destroy this HUGE dirt pile. We didn't finish but I love how much we got done especially when it was SOOOOO hot and the bugs in there were absolutely ridiculous. I also got a chance to get to know the other peeps.
Three days??? THAT'S IT???? Not exactly. While being here we all have jobs. There are hotel jobs and then there is McDonald's. I work at McDonald's. Oh "hahaha Brandon works at McDonald's." Maybe McDonald's isn't the place that you want to make a career...... Or maybe it is! If you are like my boss Mike, you can make a lot of money for what you do. And if you think McDonald's is easy you are dead wrong. When it is busy there isn't enough time to BREATHE. All you can do is keep going back and forth making sure that you have enough food and that the customers are being satisfied. So anyone who wants to knock McDonald's doesn't know a single thing about it. But it has been a good and bad experience. I hate having to work 8 hour days and I don't like getting up early. BUT, I like most of the people and I find that work can be fun as long as you make it that way. So it has been an experience to remember and I am looking forward to having God do great things through me there. Even if it's just being a role model of good work ethic :)
Next on the list...... MY ROOMMATES!!!!! So I live with 7 other people. Harold, Alec, Evan (who are all from ISU), Josh, J.D, Bo, and Vineet (who are not from ISU). It has been amazing AND a struggle to live with so many people. In my room is Harold, Vineet, and Bo. In the other room is Alec, Evan, Josh, and J.D. I share a bed with Harold. OH YEAH! We all share a bed with another person. It isn't too bad sleeping with another person. I feel like Harold and I don't get in each others way or anything like that. Anyway, I really like these guys. I will be honest and say I feel like I am not that close with two of my roommates. I don't say this to be mean, I say it because it is just evident. I don't want it to be this way. I want us all to be a family that just clicks. We still have 8 more weeks so I feel like that can all be fixed. Another thing with having so many roommates is sharing the food. We get 240 per week for food and though that seems like a good amount its really nothing for EIGHT HUNGRY GUYS!!!!! Ha. So the first week we sorta ran out of food pretty fast. It was kinda bad. We had to wait an extra day to go shopping again as well because Josh threw out our card thinking we would get another one. That was funny. But not funny at the same time do to some events that occurred because of it. So living with people has been a struggle but I am also loving it :)
The biggest update of all..... How is my relationship with God? Well, when I got here I expected to just have this HUGE desire to be with God ALL of the time and I thought I would grow right a way. Wrong. I got here and found that chillin with all of these amazing people is what I want to do. Yes, I have had good God time but not enough. I need to be more consistent and remain focused on why I am truly here. God is doing a good job at showing me certain things and making sure that I know He is here with me. I have enjoyed every quiet time that we are told to go out and have. I feel that when they tell us to go out and spend time with God I am all for it and I rock it! But when it's up to me, I am really on and off and can't find a way to be in the word all of the time. God is really testing me this summer. Trying to make it so I can find out what I am truly made of. Sometimes I hate that God is letting certain things happen to me but I also know that He will not give me anything I cannot handle. So I am trying to take each thing on and beat it. So God and I are good but we could be much better.
So that is what's going on as of now. Since I told you my roommate situation and my normal week, I won't have to repeat everything but there will probably be a little of each topic to go along with every blog from here on out. Or it will just be something amazing that God is doing in my life.
Thanks for reading!!!! =D
Help Is On the Way - Rise Against
So I have been at LT (Leadership Training) for two weeks. It has been so awesome! I am having such a great time having a summer dedicated to God. So what exactly have I done while being here? Well we have 3 scheduled things each week. We have one session on Monday night where we worship and have a speaker. I love those nights because worship is SOOOO amazing and gaining more knowledge about the word is what I want to do. I will skip past Wednesday and go to Thursday since it is the same thing as Monday. We go to two different churches though which is what supplies the difference. Monday night at Grace Church and Thursday night at Hilltop. But the busiest day would have to be Wednesday. PROJECT DAY! This is a day devoted to serving, God time, and just doing whatever will help us grow with God and with ourselves. I am always so tired after our day is over but it is so worth it. This past Wednesday my group went to a church to help like clean up and stuff. Once we got there, we split into even smaller groups so we could get certain tasks done. My group had to pull weeds and totally destroy this HUGE dirt pile. We didn't finish but I love how much we got done especially when it was SOOOOO hot and the bugs in there were absolutely ridiculous. I also got a chance to get to know the other peeps.
Three days??? THAT'S IT???? Not exactly. While being here we all have jobs. There are hotel jobs and then there is McDonald's. I work at McDonald's. Oh "hahaha Brandon works at McDonald's." Maybe McDonald's isn't the place that you want to make a career...... Or maybe it is! If you are like my boss Mike, you can make a lot of money for what you do. And if you think McDonald's is easy you are dead wrong. When it is busy there isn't enough time to BREATHE. All you can do is keep going back and forth making sure that you have enough food and that the customers are being satisfied. So anyone who wants to knock McDonald's doesn't know a single thing about it. But it has been a good and bad experience. I hate having to work 8 hour days and I don't like getting up early. BUT, I like most of the people and I find that work can be fun as long as you make it that way. So it has been an experience to remember and I am looking forward to having God do great things through me there. Even if it's just being a role model of good work ethic :)
Next on the list...... MY ROOMMATES!!!!! So I live with 7 other people. Harold, Alec, Evan (who are all from ISU), Josh, J.D, Bo, and Vineet (who are not from ISU). It has been amazing AND a struggle to live with so many people. In my room is Harold, Vineet, and Bo. In the other room is Alec, Evan, Josh, and J.D. I share a bed with Harold. OH YEAH! We all share a bed with another person. It isn't too bad sleeping with another person. I feel like Harold and I don't get in each others way or anything like that. Anyway, I really like these guys. I will be honest and say I feel like I am not that close with two of my roommates. I don't say this to be mean, I say it because it is just evident. I don't want it to be this way. I want us all to be a family that just clicks. We still have 8 more weeks so I feel like that can all be fixed. Another thing with having so many roommates is sharing the food. We get 240 per week for food and though that seems like a good amount its really nothing for EIGHT HUNGRY GUYS!!!!! Ha. So the first week we sorta ran out of food pretty fast. It was kinda bad. We had to wait an extra day to go shopping again as well because Josh threw out our card thinking we would get another one. That was funny. But not funny at the same time do to some events that occurred because of it. So living with people has been a struggle but I am also loving it :)
The biggest update of all..... How is my relationship with God? Well, when I got here I expected to just have this HUGE desire to be with God ALL of the time and I thought I would grow right a way. Wrong. I got here and found that chillin with all of these amazing people is what I want to do. Yes, I have had good God time but not enough. I need to be more consistent and remain focused on why I am truly here. God is doing a good job at showing me certain things and making sure that I know He is here with me. I have enjoyed every quiet time that we are told to go out and have. I feel that when they tell us to go out and spend time with God I am all for it and I rock it! But when it's up to me, I am really on and off and can't find a way to be in the word all of the time. God is really testing me this summer. Trying to make it so I can find out what I am truly made of. Sometimes I hate that God is letting certain things happen to me but I also know that He will not give me anything I cannot handle. So I am trying to take each thing on and beat it. So God and I are good but we could be much better.
So that is what's going on as of now. Since I told you my roommate situation and my normal week, I won't have to repeat everything but there will probably be a little of each topic to go along with every blog from here on out. Or it will just be something amazing that God is doing in my life.
Thanks for reading!!!! =D
Help Is On the Way - Rise Against
Saturday, May 14, 2011
You Hold Me In Your Hands
I AM STRESSING OUT!!!!!
I leave in six days for Virginia Beach and I still have a lot of money to raise. Sure, I still have like 7 follow-up phones calls to make as well as 9 'yes' responses to helping me, but I am still in the dark with all of that. I have no idea how much I will have by the end of the week. This is really scary. I have to pray more. I am doing a horrible job with trusting that God will come through. He calls us not to worry and that's all I am doing. Ugh......
Everything - Lifehouse
I leave in six days for Virginia Beach and I still have a lot of money to raise. Sure, I still have like 7 follow-up phones calls to make as well as 9 'yes' responses to helping me, but I am still in the dark with all of that. I have no idea how much I will have by the end of the week. This is really scary. I have to pray more. I am doing a horrible job with trusting that God will come through. He calls us not to worry and that's all I am doing. Ugh......
Everything - Lifehouse
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Break Away From Everything
Shout out to my peeps!!!!
I am on Summer break and I could not be happier right now. I thought that leaving school was gonna be this depressing moment followed by consistent days of depression. Yes, that is how sad I thought leaving school would be. SO GLAD I WAS WRONG! Being back with all of my friends not having any worries is absolutely great. My friends are so amazing and I don't know how I made it at ISU without any of them by my side. But that is part of growing up. Gotta leave the people you love at some point even though it's gonna suck. But being back is such a blessing and is something that I didn't even know I needed.
LT in 10 days!!!!!!! How amazing is that? I am so ready to go and do amazing things. I am kinda getting back into my old ways of being lazy with my faith. I really want to go to Virginia beach while being strong. I don't want to be in the weak state that I am currently in. I am just glad that God doesn't give up on people. Otherwise a lot of us would be in trouble!
I love how God can use things to show you what was there all along. I just want all of you to remember that sometimes good things can come out of the worst. It is just how it works out sometimes. So the next time you are feeling down about ANYTHING, remember that there is always more to come. Expect the unexpected!!!!
Sorry for jumping around..... There are so many things that are running through my head that I continue to bounce back and forth. There are MANY things that I could still say but I am gonna shut up and leave this post as is. I mean, it is 2:06 AM. TIME TO WATCH A MOVIE!!!!!
That is all I have for now. Keep it real :)
Break - Three Days Grace
I am on Summer break and I could not be happier right now. I thought that leaving school was gonna be this depressing moment followed by consistent days of depression. Yes, that is how sad I thought leaving school would be. SO GLAD I WAS WRONG! Being back with all of my friends not having any worries is absolutely great. My friends are so amazing and I don't know how I made it at ISU without any of them by my side. But that is part of growing up. Gotta leave the people you love at some point even though it's gonna suck. But being back is such a blessing and is something that I didn't even know I needed.
LT in 10 days!!!!!!! How amazing is that? I am so ready to go and do amazing things. I am kinda getting back into my old ways of being lazy with my faith. I really want to go to Virginia beach while being strong. I don't want to be in the weak state that I am currently in. I am just glad that God doesn't give up on people. Otherwise a lot of us would be in trouble!
I love how God can use things to show you what was there all along. I just want all of you to remember that sometimes good things can come out of the worst. It is just how it works out sometimes. So the next time you are feeling down about ANYTHING, remember that there is always more to come. Expect the unexpected!!!!
Sorry for jumping around..... There are so many things that are running through my head that I continue to bounce back and forth. There are MANY things that I could still say but I am gonna shut up and leave this post as is. I mean, it is 2:06 AM. TIME TO WATCH A MOVIE!!!!!
That is all I have for now. Keep it real :)
Break - Three Days Grace
Monday, May 2, 2011
No, I Can't Let Go of You
It has been way too long peeps..... So what is going on in my life now?
First I will start with the end of school. So I go home in like 4 days and I am both excited and extra sad. I am excited because of LT! I can't wait to spend the summer growing in my faith, getting to know the others that are going with me, and just being in a such an awesome place as I do both of those things. It is gonna be a great summer and I am ready for it. But I am really sad too. Why? Because I am leaving so many people. ISU has become my home. I mean, when I go back to Skokie I LOVE seeing everyone but something doesn't feel the same. So I am gonna miss so many people from school. And of course I am gonna miss that special someone. Yall know who I am talking about. Ha. I would say that it's affecting me for real. Just the thought of going the whole summer....... Yeah, just a lot to handle. But I know that God will help me get past it and give me a heart that is completely set on Him.
So, speaking of that special someone....... Ha. Yeah, things are good. She obviously knows and there is a 90% chance that she will be seeing this post at some point. I don't post these things to make you feel awkward (even though you're not an awkward person)! Just for the record. But yeah..... It has been like two weeks since she said she didn't return the same feelings and I have come A LONG way. I am doing so much better. I am completely satisfied with our friendship and just glad that my feelings for her really changed nothing between us. Things are just great right now. Sure, there are times when I am feeling down about it, but we all go through things like this. I truly believe that I get so down because my feelings were so unexpected. I really thought that God was calling me to her because something was meant to happen. I guess that's what happens when you go all in. The more you sacrifice, the more you have to lose. But anyways........ It is something that I can handle (right.......). If you ever want the full details of what I have been going through, just ask; I will most likely be willing to tell you.
So what else is there? Since it's been a while since my last post I feel like I need to post a really long one. Hmmm..... So it is finals week and I am once again sick for the second straight semester. Like really? Right when I'm about to take 4 exams? It's whatever. I am gonna tough it out and soon I will be home (joy and sadness). I am sitting here writing this and it is currently 2:49 AM. I mean, if I'm sick, shouldn't I be sleeping???? I'm dumb and I accept that :)
So I guess that is all I have for now. I will try to keep up with posting sooner so I get important things written. I will def keep you all posted once I get to LT. I can't wait to share everything that God is doing once I'm there.
NIGHT YALL!!!!!!! =D
Can't Let Go - Landon Pigg
First I will start with the end of school. So I go home in like 4 days and I am both excited and extra sad. I am excited because of LT! I can't wait to spend the summer growing in my faith, getting to know the others that are going with me, and just being in a such an awesome place as I do both of those things. It is gonna be a great summer and I am ready for it. But I am really sad too. Why? Because I am leaving so many people. ISU has become my home. I mean, when I go back to Skokie I LOVE seeing everyone but something doesn't feel the same. So I am gonna miss so many people from school. And of course I am gonna miss that special someone. Yall know who I am talking about. Ha. I would say that it's affecting me for real. Just the thought of going the whole summer....... Yeah, just a lot to handle. But I know that God will help me get past it and give me a heart that is completely set on Him.
So, speaking of that special someone....... Ha. Yeah, things are good. She obviously knows and there is a 90% chance that she will be seeing this post at some point. I don't post these things to make you feel awkward (even though you're not an awkward person)! Just for the record. But yeah..... It has been like two weeks since she said she didn't return the same feelings and I have come A LONG way. I am doing so much better. I am completely satisfied with our friendship and just glad that my feelings for her really changed nothing between us. Things are just great right now. Sure, there are times when I am feeling down about it, but we all go through things like this. I truly believe that I get so down because my feelings were so unexpected. I really thought that God was calling me to her because something was meant to happen. I guess that's what happens when you go all in. The more you sacrifice, the more you have to lose. But anyways........ It is something that I can handle (right.......). If you ever want the full details of what I have been going through, just ask; I will most likely be willing to tell you.
So what else is there? Since it's been a while since my last post I feel like I need to post a really long one. Hmmm..... So it is finals week and I am once again sick for the second straight semester. Like really? Right when I'm about to take 4 exams? It's whatever. I am gonna tough it out and soon I will be home (joy and sadness). I am sitting here writing this and it is currently 2:49 AM. I mean, if I'm sick, shouldn't I be sleeping???? I'm dumb and I accept that :)
So I guess that is all I have for now. I will try to keep up with posting sooner so I get important things written. I will def keep you all posted once I get to LT. I can't wait to share everything that God is doing once I'm there.
NIGHT YALL!!!!!!! =D
Can't Let Go - Landon Pigg
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I Wanna Be With You
So my song is no longer going on facebook.... I am just gonna throw it out all together. Yeah..... Yesterday I talked with the girl and the feelings are not mutual. That is is pretty much all I will say about that.
On to other things.... I shouldn't even be blogging right now. Why? Because I have physics right now but I am in my dorm room. I literally got to the building, walked up the stairs, got 10 feet from the door, and everything inside me said that I would not be able to make it through class today. I ALWAYS go to physics. Even though that class drags like no other and I always want to leave, I fight through because college is all about going to class even when you don't want to. The one time I didn't go was because I was doing a lab FOR physics! So I see it like I have never skipped this class for real. I am still going to English and my criminal justice class. Today is just not a good day.... Wow!!! Did I just say that? Isn't it Tuesday? But Tuesday's are the best days. Well this isn't good.
I am still happy about small group. I love the people there. I have gotten really close with Evan and Jonathan which makes me really happy. And I always love talking about God. Rob and Kristin do a great job with small group. But Rob won't be there tonight due to being on his HONEYMOON!!!!! Yes, Rob just got married on Saturday. I am so happy for him! He found a girl, he married that girl, and now he is gonna have an amazing life with that girl. I wish them both the best :)
I shall end you with a quote/question. I made this up on the way back to my dorm. "If you take months to build up a house that someone destroys in just one day; was it worth it?" Ponder that......
Apology - Safetysuit
On to other things.... I shouldn't even be blogging right now. Why? Because I have physics right now but I am in my dorm room. I literally got to the building, walked up the stairs, got 10 feet from the door, and everything inside me said that I would not be able to make it through class today. I ALWAYS go to physics. Even though that class drags like no other and I always want to leave, I fight through because college is all about going to class even when you don't want to. The one time I didn't go was because I was doing a lab FOR physics! So I see it like I have never skipped this class for real. I am still going to English and my criminal justice class. Today is just not a good day.... Wow!!! Did I just say that? Isn't it Tuesday? But Tuesday's are the best days. Well this isn't good.
I am still happy about small group. I love the people there. I have gotten really close with Evan and Jonathan which makes me really happy. And I always love talking about God. Rob and Kristin do a great job with small group. But Rob won't be there tonight due to being on his HONEYMOON!!!!! Yes, Rob just got married on Saturday. I am so happy for him! He found a girl, he married that girl, and now he is gonna have an amazing life with that girl. I wish them both the best :)
I shall end you with a quote/question. I made this up on the way back to my dorm. "If you take months to build up a house that someone destroys in just one day; was it worth it?" Ponder that......
Apology - Safetysuit
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Hold Your Breath Till It's Over
Again, I am starting this blog with very little to say but I expect to think of things as I go.
So tonight is the All Campus Party. It is pretty much part II to All Campus Worship. I am most likely going to that but I am trying to find someone to go with. As you all know, I am socially awkward so I am trying to make sure that I show up with someone so I am not standing in the corner like a loner. I am sorta excited to finally have something to do on the weekend. It's supposed to be nice tomorrow for FLICKERBALL!!!! But I shall focus on tonight for now....
So I made a song yesterday (or today) at like 1 AM. I didn't finish creating the music, writing the lyrics, or recording me singing it until like 2:45 AM. Ha. It was great!!! It was just a song about my feelings for someone. It will be on facebook soon but I have to make sure that the timing is not wrong. Cause putting it on facebook would mean that the person I am talking about could see it. It's a bit nerve-wracking because I have never openly sang in front of people. I sing in groups where my voice cannot be separated. Ha. Btw, my song is called Chase (You Are the One). Just thought I would throw that out there.
So yeah..... That is all for now. I will hopefully be back with new developments soon..... ;)
B-Money OUT!
We Build Then We Break - The Fray
So tonight is the All Campus Party. It is pretty much part II to All Campus Worship. I am most likely going to that but I am trying to find someone to go with. As you all know, I am socially awkward so I am trying to make sure that I show up with someone so I am not standing in the corner like a loner. I am sorta excited to finally have something to do on the weekend. It's supposed to be nice tomorrow for FLICKERBALL!!!! But I shall focus on tonight for now....
So I made a song yesterday (or today) at like 1 AM. I didn't finish creating the music, writing the lyrics, or recording me singing it until like 2:45 AM. Ha. It was great!!! It was just a song about my feelings for someone. It will be on facebook soon but I have to make sure that the timing is not wrong. Cause putting it on facebook would mean that the person I am talking about could see it. It's a bit nerve-wracking because I have never openly sang in front of people. I sing in groups where my voice cannot be separated. Ha. Btw, my song is called Chase (You Are the One). Just thought I would throw that out there.
So yeah..... That is all for now. I will hopefully be back with new developments soon..... ;)
B-Money OUT!
We Build Then We Break - The Fray
Monday, April 11, 2011
I Would Kill To Be With You Tonight
I haven't had a really long post in a while so I figured I would do just that. But thinking about it, I don't really have many feelings to spill out.
I CAN TALK ABOUT LT!!!! So LT is slowly approaching as the end of the school year approaches along with it. I am so excited for Virginia Beach!!! I can't wait to deepen my faith with God and do the work of a true disciple. I am also looking forward to getting to know everyone that is going. It will be great to establish those friendships and know that I will be right back with them when we get back to school. Support raising is going well. My stress level has decreased. I am just really excited!!!!
What else? I guess I can spill some feelings. So things have been pretty good as of late. Haven't been feeling down. Haven't been angry about missing chances. I feel like little things are starting to click and it's pretty awesome. But there is one that I really wanna do. I shall do that in the next couple of days. Lol. But yeah..... I have been in a good mood because I have been more satisfied with my progress. I say this now, but if you were to ask me tomorrow, I would probably say the complete opposite. It is more of a day to day thing. Again I am sure most of you are confused, but that's okay. Just know that I am doing well and this is where I want to be.
SO HOW ABOUT THE WEATHER!!!???? It has been amazing outside as of late. The only thing that is missing is a late night walk. But no one ever replies to my desired walk statuses on facebook...... I love walks!!! Because I love talks!!! And walk talks are the best talks :) Ha.... So if you ever want to walk and talk, I am the guy to call because I love it!!!!
I guess that is it..... I will probably have more for you all tomorrow..... meaning...... TUESDAY!!!! Tuesdays are awesome. And tomorrow is special because of ALL CAMPUS WORSHIP!!!! I am so pumped! Worship is my thing. It. Just. ROCKS!!!
Have a great night everyone!!! =D
The Glass Parade - Cary Brothers
I CAN TALK ABOUT LT!!!! So LT is slowly approaching as the end of the school year approaches along with it. I am so excited for Virginia Beach!!! I can't wait to deepen my faith with God and do the work of a true disciple. I am also looking forward to getting to know everyone that is going. It will be great to establish those friendships and know that I will be right back with them when we get back to school. Support raising is going well. My stress level has decreased. I am just really excited!!!!
What else? I guess I can spill some feelings. So things have been pretty good as of late. Haven't been feeling down. Haven't been angry about missing chances. I feel like little things are starting to click and it's pretty awesome. But there is one that I really wanna do. I shall do that in the next couple of days. Lol. But yeah..... I have been in a good mood because I have been more satisfied with my progress. I say this now, but if you were to ask me tomorrow, I would probably say the complete opposite. It is more of a day to day thing. Again I am sure most of you are confused, but that's okay. Just know that I am doing well and this is where I want to be.
SO HOW ABOUT THE WEATHER!!!???? It has been amazing outside as of late. The only thing that is missing is a late night walk. But no one ever replies to my desired walk statuses on facebook...... I love walks!!! Because I love talks!!! And walk talks are the best talks :) Ha.... So if you ever want to walk and talk, I am the guy to call because I love it!!!!
I guess that is it..... I will probably have more for you all tomorrow..... meaning...... TUESDAY!!!! Tuesdays are awesome. And tomorrow is special because of ALL CAMPUS WORSHIP!!!! I am so pumped! Worship is my thing. It. Just. ROCKS!!!
Have a great night everyone!!! =D
The Glass Parade - Cary Brothers
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Life is Beautiful
IT IS AMAZING OUTSIDE!!!!
Right now I have this desire to go for a walk but I don't want to go by myself. It's really late but I would love to just do it! The next time it is this nice out I will make sure to go on a walk with someone.
That person could be you! :)
Have a great night everyone!!!
Life is Beautiful - Vega4
Right now I have this desire to go for a walk but I don't want to go by myself. It's really late but I would love to just do it! The next time it is this nice out I will make sure to go on a walk with someone.
That person could be you! :)
Have a great night everyone!!!
Life is Beautiful - Vega4
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Rest in Pieces
Hmmm...... Well tonight was pretty good. Entertainment Night was great and so was Steak 'n Shake, but something was off. My feelings had gone from sad to mad. It is so bad. I am a little upset with God. I don't like feeling so angry with my Father, but I don't understand what is going on. The information that I will give will really shed a little more light on things, but at this point, being "outed" isn't even a big deal.
So why am I mad with God? Well, there were two questions that I kept asking at Steak 'n Shake as well as when we were leaving. "What are you doing God?" and "Why are you doing it?" were the two questions. I keep asking what God is doing because I truly just don't get it. I felt like, YES, God is giving me this opportunity to do something more. Truly show that my feelings are real. But I got blocked. I literally felt like a wall was put up in front of me. I was trying to break it down but there was really nothing I could do.It's like, I am trying my best to do what I can with the time that we have left, but something keeps getting in the way. I keep asking God to help me with this and there are times where He truly does, but other times He will not allow me to make a move. And it's those times when the opportunities are so perfect.
I was also asking WHY God would do this? Like really, He is the only one who knows how much this means to me. He is the only one that truly understands how serious I am and how this affects me each and every day. But He is blocking me. I keep reminding myself that it is His will but sometimes I just can't keep that in my mind. As I write this, my anger is actually dying down. I am beginning to get angry with myself for being angry with God. I just want more. I need more. I know I said that this would shed a light on things, maybe it is, maybe it isn't, but I need all of you to understand that I am not okay. I am trying my hardest to just be content and satisfied, but I can't. Sure, if God tells me to leave it alone I can, but that doesn't mean that I want to. Ugh...... I need to rid myself of this. I want God to literally just push me to the person so I can come right out and say it. There you go. That gives you even more information on what I am talking about. Which brings me to another thing. If said person were to read this, it could hurt me in the end. But I guess God will do what is meant to be done.
So I impatiently wait for the day to come when I can do just that..... But until that day comes, know that I am hurting inside. I am not trying to have you all feel bad, I am just telling it how it is.
Gnite everyone
Rest in Pieces - Saliva
So why am I mad with God? Well, there were two questions that I kept asking at Steak 'n Shake as well as when we were leaving. "What are you doing God?" and "Why are you doing it?" were the two questions. I keep asking what God is doing because I truly just don't get it. I felt like, YES, God is giving me this opportunity to do something more. Truly show that my feelings are real. But I got blocked. I literally felt like a wall was put up in front of me. I was trying to break it down but there was really nothing I could do.It's like, I am trying my best to do what I can with the time that we have left, but something keeps getting in the way. I keep asking God to help me with this and there are times where He truly does, but other times He will not allow me to make a move. And it's those times when the opportunities are so perfect.
I was also asking WHY God would do this? Like really, He is the only one who knows how much this means to me. He is the only one that truly understands how serious I am and how this affects me each and every day. But He is blocking me. I keep reminding myself that it is His will but sometimes I just can't keep that in my mind. As I write this, my anger is actually dying down. I am beginning to get angry with myself for being angry with God. I just want more. I need more. I know I said that this would shed a light on things, maybe it is, maybe it isn't, but I need all of you to understand that I am not okay. I am trying my hardest to just be content and satisfied, but I can't. Sure, if God tells me to leave it alone I can, but that doesn't mean that I want to. Ugh...... I need to rid myself of this. I want God to literally just push me to the person so I can come right out and say it. There you go. That gives you even more information on what I am talking about. Which brings me to another thing. If said person were to read this, it could hurt me in the end. But I guess God will do what is meant to be done.
So I impatiently wait for the day to come when I can do just that..... But until that day comes, know that I am hurting inside. I am not trying to have you all feel bad, I am just telling it how it is.
Gnite everyone
Rest in Pieces - Saliva
Saturday, April 2, 2011
If You Want, I Want Too
Right now it is 12:10 AM. I have had a pretty productive day. In terms of God time and homework. I am pleased with those two things, but I still was extra bored for most of the day. This is why I hate weekends. The weekend is the time when I don't do anything. Unlike the week when I am SOOOOO busy with class, workingout, work, and Cornerstone. So I look forward to going to class and getting the week started. The only upside to the weekends, AND I MEAN ONLY, is the sleep I get. Other than that, the weekends aren't what they used to be. High School weekends were definitely better.
Now on to more stuff...... I have this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. Say there is this person, and said person is so close with all of these people. But I am not close with this person. So every time I see (oh what the heck) her, I always think about how I am not that close with her. But there are so many people that are exactly where I want to be. Friendships rock. But the time that it takes to build a good friendship doesn't when you are in such a rush to make yourself important in their eyes. And that is why I feel so hopeless... I truly feel like I will never be able to get there, especially with the slowness of my progress now.
That is pretty much all I got for now..... I am exhausted and in a mood where I could definitely talk about all of my feelings that I can't let out yet, but that would be yet another repetition of like 3 other posts. So.......
I'm out!!!
Lifeline - Angels and Airwaves
Now on to more stuff...... I have this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. Say there is this person, and said person is so close with all of these people. But I am not close with this person. So every time I see (oh what the heck) her, I always think about how I am not that close with her. But there are so many people that are exactly where I want to be. Friendships rock. But the time that it takes to build a good friendship doesn't when you are in such a rush to make yourself important in their eyes. And that is why I feel so hopeless... I truly feel like I will never be able to get there, especially with the slowness of my progress now.
That is pretty much all I got for now..... I am exhausted and in a mood where I could definitely talk about all of my feelings that I can't let out yet, but that would be yet another repetition of like 3 other posts. So.......
I'm out!!!
Lifeline - Angels and Airwaves
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Like Sunlight Burning At Midnight
Best weekend ever??? Yes!!!! Even Sunday rocked my socks. Friday was a good day. Got to hang out with my brodys!!! Even my roommate hung out which was awesome because we don't truly hang out all that much. So that was a wonderful time. Now Saturday..... Saturday was FANTASTIC! I went to Winter Jam with Evan, Andrew, Harold (Harry), and Jonathan. Winter Jam is a tour for like ten different Christian bands. The Newsboys PUT ON A SHOW. It was sooooooo great. Just being in a room with so many people that love the Lord blew me away. OMG just so great. We didn't get back till like 12:30 AM since it was at UofI. On the way home, Revelation Song came on and we all sang along. It was so moving. Driving back to ISU with these amazing guys just praising the Lord with our voices. Again, FAN-TAS-TIC!!!
Then Sunday came..... A day that I usually dread because there is nothing to do. But that is not true. I have been so blinded by my own idea when I never saw God's. But first, I went to lunch with Kristin and KK. Then Jonathan came out of nowhere with food and joined us. Then Evan came out of nowhere and joined us as well. Soon enough, we were up in Kristin's room talking about anything and everything. I didn't do much talking because I was exhausted but I chimed in at times. I love listening to others speak though. After a lot of talking and the departure of Kristin, we left KK to do her homework. And for the first time I knew exactly what I was gonna do this Sunday. And I was excited..... wait for it..... wait for it...... BIBLE READING!!!! I had fallen behind and had catching up to do. So I sat in my bed, opened to where I was in John, and read. It was an amazing time. I have never been so happy and joyful about bible reading. God is definitely molding me into the man that I was meant to be.
So enough of the play by play........ I have been very on and off with my feelings. But more about the outcome of a certain situation. At times I feel like there is a chance and that is what I must focus on. But there are other times when everything that I hear makes me believe that there is no chance whatsoever. I want a clear cut answer. IS THERE A CHANCE!?!?!?! Because if there is, this guy right here is extra happy. If there isn't, well that sure does suck. And this guy right here will not be happy. And if that does happen, I have to remember that it's God's will and not mine. I have a hard problem with that. There are many times when God is like "Brandon, you are not meant to do this right now" or "Brandon, I hold your future in my hands so will you stop resisting what I have in store for you?" I literally hear God saying these things to me all of the time but I just can't accept it sometimes. I gotta work on that.....
Anything else on my mind.... I am drinking an energy drink right now so I am hyper/excited/ready/crazy. I'm writing this post then I'm gonna study/do homework/work!!!! For all of you who read these posts, I love feedback. So feel free to comment whenever. Thank you Adelina for your comment. And Kristin, thanks for caring about my life.
GNITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
Francesca Battistelli - Beautiful, Beautiful
Then Sunday came..... A day that I usually dread because there is nothing to do. But that is not true. I have been so blinded by my own idea when I never saw God's. But first, I went to lunch with Kristin and KK. Then Jonathan came out of nowhere with food and joined us. Then Evan came out of nowhere and joined us as well. Soon enough, we were up in Kristin's room talking about anything and everything. I didn't do much talking because I was exhausted but I chimed in at times. I love listening to others speak though. After a lot of talking and the departure of Kristin, we left KK to do her homework. And for the first time I knew exactly what I was gonna do this Sunday. And I was excited..... wait for it..... wait for it...... BIBLE READING!!!! I had fallen behind and had catching up to do. So I sat in my bed, opened to where I was in John, and read. It was an amazing time. I have never been so happy and joyful about bible reading. God is definitely molding me into the man that I was meant to be.
So enough of the play by play........ I have been very on and off with my feelings. But more about the outcome of a certain situation. At times I feel like there is a chance and that is what I must focus on. But there are other times when everything that I hear makes me believe that there is no chance whatsoever. I want a clear cut answer. IS THERE A CHANCE!?!?!?! Because if there is, this guy right here is extra happy. If there isn't, well that sure does suck. And this guy right here will not be happy. And if that does happen, I have to remember that it's God's will and not mine. I have a hard problem with that. There are many times when God is like "Brandon, you are not meant to do this right now" or "Brandon, I hold your future in my hands so will you stop resisting what I have in store for you?" I literally hear God saying these things to me all of the time but I just can't accept it sometimes. I gotta work on that.....
Anything else on my mind.... I am drinking an energy drink right now so I am hyper/excited/ready/crazy. I'm writing this post then I'm gonna study/do homework/work!!!! For all of you who read these posts, I love feedback. So feel free to comment whenever. Thank you Adelina for your comment. And Kristin, thanks for caring about my life.
GNITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
Francesca Battistelli - Beautiful, Beautiful
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Thinking of You
Music!
Music is so important to me. When I am listening to music, I do my best thinking. I usually think about my feelings. Yep. That's me. Emotional Brandon. But I love it!!! It is when I can clear my mind and focus on that special someone.
We all love music. But we all have different reasons for loving it.
Now go listen to your favorite song! :)
Thinking of You - Katy Perry
Music is so important to me. When I am listening to music, I do my best thinking. I usually think about my feelings. Yep. That's me. Emotional Brandon. But I love it!!! It is when I can clear my mind and focus on that special someone.
We all love music. But we all have different reasons for loving it.
Now go listen to your favorite song! :)
Thinking of You - Katy Perry
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I Am So Helpless, God You Are So Able
It's been a while guys! I was gonna post yesterday but totally got distracted. But I'm here now and that's what matters.
The main thing that has been on my mind for a while is how much God cares and how God truly does answer prayer. Praying has never been issue for me, but trusting that God would answer those prayers had been. It no longer is because I know that God will answer in time. It may not be what you necessarily asked for, but it will definitely give you clarity on your situation. I have been blessed with answered prayers left and right for the past week. Even small things that I feel God wouldn't take the time on. The truth is..... GOD CARES ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING!!!! There are no stupid prayers. If anything, God wants you to ask for help, or guidance, or whatever is on your heart. That is why I have been so content with my life as of late. For the first time, I took everything that I had, and gave it to God. And he has taken care of me since then. So trust yourselves to trust God and everything will be fine.
So what else is up??? Only craziness regarding LT. I have been doing so much to prepare for the summer. Talking to my leaders back home. Preparing all of my letters that should be sent out no later than Thursday (personal goal). All of the forms that need to be sent in, as well as a form that needs to be signed by my mom. A much longer process due to her not being here. So things have been hectic. Oh yeah, I can't forget the school that goes along with that. Exams, homework, studying. Trying to be as serious as possible about the end of the semester. It's been a pretty stressful/awesome/exciting ride.
One last thing..... I am truly thankful and blessed to have people that care about me. To know that I can turn to all of my friends no matter what is going on in my life means so much. And I want to thank all of you who take the time to read my blog. If you only knew how big of a deal it was......
That is all :)
Can't Get Away - Rush of Fools
The main thing that has been on my mind for a while is how much God cares and how God truly does answer prayer. Praying has never been issue for me, but trusting that God would answer those prayers had been. It no longer is because I know that God will answer in time. It may not be what you necessarily asked for, but it will definitely give you clarity on your situation. I have been blessed with answered prayers left and right for the past week. Even small things that I feel God wouldn't take the time on. The truth is..... GOD CARES ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING!!!! There are no stupid prayers. If anything, God wants you to ask for help, or guidance, or whatever is on your heart. That is why I have been so content with my life as of late. For the first time, I took everything that I had, and gave it to God. And he has taken care of me since then. So trust yourselves to trust God and everything will be fine.
So what else is up??? Only craziness regarding LT. I have been doing so much to prepare for the summer. Talking to my leaders back home. Preparing all of my letters that should be sent out no later than Thursday (personal goal). All of the forms that need to be sent in, as well as a form that needs to be signed by my mom. A much longer process due to her not being here. So things have been hectic. Oh yeah, I can't forget the school that goes along with that. Exams, homework, studying. Trying to be as serious as possible about the end of the semester. It's been a pretty stressful/awesome/exciting ride.
One last thing..... I am truly thankful and blessed to have people that care about me. To know that I can turn to all of my friends no matter what is going on in my life means so much. And I want to thank all of you who take the time to read my blog. If you only knew how big of a deal it was......
That is all :)
Can't Get Away - Rush of Fools
Monday, March 14, 2011
One of Those Days
You know when you have a day that has been too good to be true? Like all the right things have been happening and you have no idea why. That was my today. Until about 7:30 when I got to work. But first, the first half of my day. So I skipped my 9 AM and slept until 11. I then woke up thinking that today was gonna suck (see last post). But I was sooooo wrong. The first upside was talking to Kristin about LT. I guess the fact that I was planning on going away this summer hadn't set in until this particular convo. Kristin's excitement for me only made me even more excited. I am so ready to grow!!! So that was the first thing. Then I went to my blog and found that 3 people had joined. Now it's at 4! Thank you Kristin, Evan, Sonny, and Courtney :) Oh, and Junaid too (isn't a follower but reads it). So that just made me happier than I already was.
The final thing that happened....... I was meeting Evan at 5 to get some dinner at Watterson, so I went and worked out before that with Angelo and then walked with him to his building. While I was about to say goodbye to Angelo, Evan called me and said that Kristin and KK were gonna join us for dinner. I loved that!!! It was like a small group dinner! Lol. For those of you who don't know, small group is a bible study that meets in the dorms. It's open to whoever is interested. So yeah.... We all went to dinner, ate (obviously), and talked about stuff. This part of my day was just what I needed to start the second half of the semester off.
Then it was time for work. And this is where less of a story takes place. I am impatient. It is extremely hard for me to wait around for something to happen. I just have trouble doing it. Maybe it was the aggravation of work, or maybe the pounding headache that I had. Either way, I started to think that I should just come right out and say it. Like for real, what is the point of keeping this in? Oh I know. Because it isn't the right time. And there is still so much left to learn. At this point, I'm sure most of you are wondering what the heck I am talking about. Let's just say that only a select few would be able to know. But for those who don't, do you understand where I'm coming from? What's the difference between now, or 6 months from now. I don't see one. Because if it's meant to happen, then it will happen. But as I write this, I start to reazlie that it would NOT be a good idea. I just wanna let this out!!!!! Anyway, before I go on too much longer and continue to confuse you, I will jump to one last comment.
The titles of my posts usually refer to lyrics of a song or the song itself. Just thought I would let you know that because I am gonna start posting the song and artist at the end of every blog entry. What a way to end this right?!?!?!?
One of Those Days - Joshua Radin
The final thing that happened....... I was meeting Evan at 5 to get some dinner at Watterson, so I went and worked out before that with Angelo and then walked with him to his building. While I was about to say goodbye to Angelo, Evan called me and said that Kristin and KK were gonna join us for dinner. I loved that!!! It was like a small group dinner! Lol. For those of you who don't know, small group is a bible study that meets in the dorms. It's open to whoever is interested. So yeah.... We all went to dinner, ate (obviously), and talked about stuff. This part of my day was just what I needed to start the second half of the semester off.
Then it was time for work. And this is where less of a story takes place. I am impatient. It is extremely hard for me to wait around for something to happen. I just have trouble doing it. Maybe it was the aggravation of work, or maybe the pounding headache that I had. Either way, I started to think that I should just come right out and say it. Like for real, what is the point of keeping this in? Oh I know. Because it isn't the right time. And there is still so much left to learn. At this point, I'm sure most of you are wondering what the heck I am talking about. Let's just say that only a select few would be able to know. But for those who don't, do you understand where I'm coming from? What's the difference between now, or 6 months from now. I don't see one. Because if it's meant to happen, then it will happen. But as I write this, I start to reazlie that it would NOT be a good idea. I just wanna let this out!!!!! Anyway, before I go on too much longer and continue to confuse you, I will jump to one last comment.
The titles of my posts usually refer to lyrics of a song or the song itself. Just thought I would let you know that because I am gonna start posting the song and artist at the end of every blog entry. What a way to end this right?!?!?!?
One of Those Days - Joshua Radin
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Into the Fire
Hey everyone!!! (Not sure who everyone is, seeing that I have no followers....but anyway.....) I am now back at school since Spring Break is over. The plan was to tell you all everything that happen from Tuesday on, but I don't really have the patience or the desire to do so. Lol. So what I will talk about is TODAY!!!
It is Sunday. I am back in my dorm, chillin, reading my bible, and just resting. I am so happy to be back. Don't get me wrong, seeing my friends back home never lets me down, but there was something I was missing...... But now that I am back everything is back to normal. And when I say normal, I don't mean it in a good way.
The week before spring break was the worst!!! Not because of what I did or did not do, but because of the stupid thing we call emotion or feeling. I am an emotional guy. Always have been. But it is not a good thing!!! At first it was like "yeah, I let my feelings out and people love that. My feelings are so strong for this thing and that's awesome." But I don't feel that way this time. Because last week I was sad..... And right now I am sad. I can't really go into detials. Not yet at least..... One day, but many from right now, I will tell you why I was so sad. But for right now, all you need to know is that I was sad, am sad, and might be sad for a little while. But the thing with me is that I don't always show my true emotion. Like many people, I can easily hide how I am truly feeling. Whenever I am with my friends, or anyone for that matter, I don't always show them that I am hurting inside because I know that only puts a damper on the mood and makes me look like a baby. So I hold it in and hope that I can make it through. I realize that I am rambling so I am gonna stop. I promise to blog about something amazing that happened next time.
Excuse my lameness =P
Into the Fire - Thirteen Senses
It is Sunday. I am back in my dorm, chillin, reading my bible, and just resting. I am so happy to be back. Don't get me wrong, seeing my friends back home never lets me down, but there was something I was missing...... But now that I am back everything is back to normal. And when I say normal, I don't mean it in a good way.
The week before spring break was the worst!!! Not because of what I did or did not do, but because of the stupid thing we call emotion or feeling. I am an emotional guy. Always have been. But it is not a good thing!!! At first it was like "yeah, I let my feelings out and people love that. My feelings are so strong for this thing and that's awesome." But I don't feel that way this time. Because last week I was sad..... And right now I am sad. I can't really go into detials. Not yet at least..... One day, but many from right now, I will tell you why I was so sad. But for right now, all you need to know is that I was sad, am sad, and might be sad for a little while. But the thing with me is that I don't always show my true emotion. Like many people, I can easily hide how I am truly feeling. Whenever I am with my friends, or anyone for that matter, I don't always show them that I am hurting inside because I know that only puts a damper on the mood and makes me look like a baby. So I hold it in and hope that I can make it through. I realize that I am rambling so I am gonna stop. I promise to blog about something amazing that happened next time.
Excuse my lameness =P
Into the Fire - Thirteen Senses
Monday, March 7, 2011
Missing You
So right now I am on spring break!!!!!! It has been good so far. On the Friday I got back, I went to my friend Junaid's house. We went to TB to get some food, then went back to his house and just chilled. I loved hanging with him cause I got to fill him in on all the emotional rollercoaters I have ridden since the last time I saw him and because he knows exactly how to make me feel better.
On Saturday I got to see one of my best friends, Matt Gliebe!!!!! :) It was so awesome. We played football in the nasty weather with Sonny, Dumiter, Michael, Greg, Ben, Gil, Radar, and Emit. It was an amazing time!!!! Then that night, I hung out with Dumiter for a little while and got to catch up with him. Again I also filled everybody in on what was going on with me in college and all of my emotion. They always love to hear what has changed since the last time. So Saturday was great.
Then came Sunday. Usually Sundays are horrible!!! Except for church, I don't do anything. But this time, I hung out with my friend George. We watched Grown Ups which was one of the funniest movies I've seen in a long time. After chillin wit him, I went back to the Nagler's, where I stay during breaks, and just chilled till like 3AM. Then I slept :)
Now it's Monday. I am going to see a movie with my boy Michael LahLah La. We are gonna see The Adjustment Bureau which looks like it will be an awesome movie.
So I guess that's it for now. I am really missing ISU tho. As crazy as it sounds, I am counting down the days till I go back. I have a lot of "things" that I need to do before the end of the school year. I shall be back with more posts much later in the week.
BYE!!!!!!! =D
Missing You - Tyler Hilton
On Saturday I got to see one of my best friends, Matt Gliebe!!!!! :) It was so awesome. We played football in the nasty weather with Sonny, Dumiter, Michael, Greg, Ben, Gil, Radar, and Emit. It was an amazing time!!!! Then that night, I hung out with Dumiter for a little while and got to catch up with him. Again I also filled everybody in on what was going on with me in college and all of my emotion. They always love to hear what has changed since the last time. So Saturday was great.
Then came Sunday. Usually Sundays are horrible!!! Except for church, I don't do anything. But this time, I hung out with my friend George. We watched Grown Ups which was one of the funniest movies I've seen in a long time. After chillin wit him, I went back to the Nagler's, where I stay during breaks, and just chilled till like 3AM. Then I slept :)
Now it's Monday. I am going to see a movie with my boy Michael LahLah La. We are gonna see The Adjustment Bureau which looks like it will be an awesome movie.
So I guess that's it for now. I am really missing ISU tho. As crazy as it sounds, I am counting down the days till I go back. I have a lot of "things" that I need to do before the end of the school year. I shall be back with more posts much later in the week.
BYE!!!!!!! =D
Missing You - Tyler Hilton
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Feeling A Moment
You know when you are really looking forward to a day and nothing could change that feeling? Yeah. Tuesday was that day for me. The reason I was looking forward to Tuesday was because of small group. I had a crumby couple of days and I knew that this day would change it all for me.Instead of studying the bible this week, it was a time to just chill, do homework, and watch a movie. I really loved it!!!!! I love hanging with Rob, Kristin, Jonathan, Rae, Evan, and Katie. Since I am new to the group, I am getting to know them as each week goes by. Getting to know people is something I love. Right now it's not all that personal, but you can't rush those kinds of things. People have to know that you are trustworthy in order to let you in. But I am satisfied right now. God has given me exactly what I wanted and things are only looking up from here.
On a completely different note.... You know when there are SOOOOO many things that you want to say but it isn't the right time to say it??? OMG! There are so many things on my mind right now and I can't really do much about it. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I know that it's really bothering me. Why must I have so much to say?
"Why don't you come right out and say it? Even if the words are gonna hurt we're better off this way." Well you know what Relient K, sometimes you can't do that!!!!
But anyways.... It was a great night and I look forward to many more nights like this one. PEACE!
Feeling a Moment - Feeder
On a completely different note.... You know when there are SOOOOO many things that you want to say but it isn't the right time to say it??? OMG! There are so many things on my mind right now and I can't really do much about it. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I know that it's really bothering me. Why must I have so much to say?
"Why don't you come right out and say it? Even if the words are gonna hurt we're better off this way." Well you know what Relient K, sometimes you can't do that!!!!
But anyways.... It was a great night and I look forward to many more nights like this one. PEACE!
Feeling a Moment - Feeder
Sunday, February 27, 2011
I See It In Your Eyes
You know when you are trying to get rid of a feeling? Something that is there and you just can't take? I have been dealing with that for the past 3 days. It's one of those things that shouldn't make me so sad, but it's as if I don't have any control over the situation. But I continue to pray to God and go to my amazing friends for help. It has really done wonders. The feeling is still there, but my friends are great, and God is good. I know in time that he will take this away and give me the satisfaction of what I already have.
I am impatient. I like to look into the future and think about the quickest way there. But it isn't about that. It's about the now. Especially when the future holds so many different things. That cannot always be controlled. God has a plan and I need to remind myself of that all of the time. Though it doesn't always make it better, it still gives me the satisfaction of being in good hands. So I wait for the future and live for the present. All we have is now.
Have a great night everyone :)
Wires - Athlete
I am impatient. I like to look into the future and think about the quickest way there. But it isn't about that. It's about the now. Especially when the future holds so many different things. That cannot always be controlled. God has a plan and I need to remind myself of that all of the time. Though it doesn't always make it better, it still gives me the satisfaction of being in good hands. So I wait for the future and live for the present. All we have is now.
Have a great night everyone :)
Wires - Athlete
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Rebirthing
So this is my first blog. I decided to start blogging after reading some of a friend's blog. The words that were written really inspired me to share more of who I am and what I go through every single day. So here we go.....
This is my first year in college. After coming to school, I was looking to get involved with a good Christian group on campus. First semester did not go according to plan. I didn't do anything at all. I kept saying that I wanted to but it just never happened. But everything changed this semester. I decided that I was finally gonna take action. And that is how I started going to Cornerstone. I am loving it. The people are amazing. I learn something new every time I go. It is just what I needed to get back on track with my faith. That is the highlight of this semester so far. I cannot express enough how much this group has already impacted my life. Whether it's Rob, Rudy, Liz, Kristin, or anyone else.
I plan on this semester only to get better as my relationship grows, not only with these people, but with God as well.
Rebirthing - Skillet
This is my first year in college. After coming to school, I was looking to get involved with a good Christian group on campus. First semester did not go according to plan. I didn't do anything at all. I kept saying that I wanted to but it just never happened. But everything changed this semester. I decided that I was finally gonna take action. And that is how I started going to Cornerstone. I am loving it. The people are amazing. I learn something new every time I go. It is just what I needed to get back on track with my faith. That is the highlight of this semester so far. I cannot express enough how much this group has already impacted my life. Whether it's Rob, Rudy, Liz, Kristin, or anyone else.
I plan on this semester only to get better as my relationship grows, not only with these people, but with God as well.
Rebirthing - Skillet
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