Best weekend ever??? Yes!!!! Even Sunday rocked my socks. Friday was a good day. Got to hang out with my brodys!!! Even my roommate hung out which was awesome because we don't truly hang out all that much. So that was a wonderful time. Now Saturday..... Saturday was FANTASTIC! I went to Winter Jam with Evan, Andrew, Harold (Harry), and Jonathan. Winter Jam is a tour for like ten different Christian bands. The Newsboys PUT ON A SHOW. It was sooooooo great. Just being in a room with so many people that love the Lord blew me away. OMG just so great. We didn't get back till like 12:30 AM since it was at UofI. On the way home, Revelation Song came on and we all sang along. It was so moving. Driving back to ISU with these amazing guys just praising the Lord with our voices. Again, FAN-TAS-TIC!!!
Then Sunday came..... A day that I usually dread because there is nothing to do. But that is not true. I have been so blinded by my own idea when I never saw God's. But first, I went to lunch with Kristin and KK. Then Jonathan came out of nowhere with food and joined us. Then Evan came out of nowhere and joined us as well. Soon enough, we were up in Kristin's room talking about anything and everything. I didn't do much talking because I was exhausted but I chimed in at times. I love listening to others speak though. After a lot of talking and the departure of Kristin, we left KK to do her homework. And for the first time I knew exactly what I was gonna do this Sunday. And I was excited..... wait for it..... wait for it...... BIBLE READING!!!! I had fallen behind and had catching up to do. So I sat in my bed, opened to where I was in John, and read. It was an amazing time. I have never been so happy and joyful about bible reading. God is definitely molding me into the man that I was meant to be.
So enough of the play by play........ I have been very on and off with my feelings. But more about the outcome of a certain situation. At times I feel like there is a chance and that is what I must focus on. But there are other times when everything that I hear makes me believe that there is no chance whatsoever. I want a clear cut answer. IS THERE A CHANCE!?!?!?! Because if there is, this guy right here is extra happy. If there isn't, well that sure does suck. And this guy right here will not be happy. And if that does happen, I have to remember that it's God's will and not mine. I have a hard problem with that. There are many times when God is like "Brandon, you are not meant to do this right now" or "Brandon, I hold your future in my hands so will you stop resisting what I have in store for you?" I literally hear God saying these things to me all of the time but I just can't accept it sometimes. I gotta work on that.....
Anything else on my mind.... I am drinking an energy drink right now so I am hyper/excited/ready/crazy. I'm writing this post then I'm gonna study/do homework/work!!!! For all of you who read these posts, I love feedback. So feel free to comment whenever. Thank you Adelina for your comment. And Kristin, thanks for caring about my life.
GNITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
Francesca Battistelli - Beautiful, Beautiful
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Thinking of You
Music!
Music is so important to me. When I am listening to music, I do my best thinking. I usually think about my feelings. Yep. That's me. Emotional Brandon. But I love it!!! It is when I can clear my mind and focus on that special someone.
We all love music. But we all have different reasons for loving it.
Now go listen to your favorite song! :)
Thinking of You - Katy Perry
Music is so important to me. When I am listening to music, I do my best thinking. I usually think about my feelings. Yep. That's me. Emotional Brandon. But I love it!!! It is when I can clear my mind and focus on that special someone.
We all love music. But we all have different reasons for loving it.
Now go listen to your favorite song! :)
Thinking of You - Katy Perry
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I Am So Helpless, God You Are So Able
It's been a while guys! I was gonna post yesterday but totally got distracted. But I'm here now and that's what matters.
The main thing that has been on my mind for a while is how much God cares and how God truly does answer prayer. Praying has never been issue for me, but trusting that God would answer those prayers had been. It no longer is because I know that God will answer in time. It may not be what you necessarily asked for, but it will definitely give you clarity on your situation. I have been blessed with answered prayers left and right for the past week. Even small things that I feel God wouldn't take the time on. The truth is..... GOD CARES ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING!!!! There are no stupid prayers. If anything, God wants you to ask for help, or guidance, or whatever is on your heart. That is why I have been so content with my life as of late. For the first time, I took everything that I had, and gave it to God. And he has taken care of me since then. So trust yourselves to trust God and everything will be fine.
So what else is up??? Only craziness regarding LT. I have been doing so much to prepare for the summer. Talking to my leaders back home. Preparing all of my letters that should be sent out no later than Thursday (personal goal). All of the forms that need to be sent in, as well as a form that needs to be signed by my mom. A much longer process due to her not being here. So things have been hectic. Oh yeah, I can't forget the school that goes along with that. Exams, homework, studying. Trying to be as serious as possible about the end of the semester. It's been a pretty stressful/awesome/exciting ride.
One last thing..... I am truly thankful and blessed to have people that care about me. To know that I can turn to all of my friends no matter what is going on in my life means so much. And I want to thank all of you who take the time to read my blog. If you only knew how big of a deal it was......
That is all :)
Can't Get Away - Rush of Fools
The main thing that has been on my mind for a while is how much God cares and how God truly does answer prayer. Praying has never been issue for me, but trusting that God would answer those prayers had been. It no longer is because I know that God will answer in time. It may not be what you necessarily asked for, but it will definitely give you clarity on your situation. I have been blessed with answered prayers left and right for the past week. Even small things that I feel God wouldn't take the time on. The truth is..... GOD CARES ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING!!!! There are no stupid prayers. If anything, God wants you to ask for help, or guidance, or whatever is on your heart. That is why I have been so content with my life as of late. For the first time, I took everything that I had, and gave it to God. And he has taken care of me since then. So trust yourselves to trust God and everything will be fine.
So what else is up??? Only craziness regarding LT. I have been doing so much to prepare for the summer. Talking to my leaders back home. Preparing all of my letters that should be sent out no later than Thursday (personal goal). All of the forms that need to be sent in, as well as a form that needs to be signed by my mom. A much longer process due to her not being here. So things have been hectic. Oh yeah, I can't forget the school that goes along with that. Exams, homework, studying. Trying to be as serious as possible about the end of the semester. It's been a pretty stressful/awesome/exciting ride.
One last thing..... I am truly thankful and blessed to have people that care about me. To know that I can turn to all of my friends no matter what is going on in my life means so much. And I want to thank all of you who take the time to read my blog. If you only knew how big of a deal it was......
That is all :)
Can't Get Away - Rush of Fools
Monday, March 14, 2011
One of Those Days
You know when you have a day that has been too good to be true? Like all the right things have been happening and you have no idea why. That was my today. Until about 7:30 when I got to work. But first, the first half of my day. So I skipped my 9 AM and slept until 11. I then woke up thinking that today was gonna suck (see last post). But I was sooooo wrong. The first upside was talking to Kristin about LT. I guess the fact that I was planning on going away this summer hadn't set in until this particular convo. Kristin's excitement for me only made me even more excited. I am so ready to grow!!! So that was the first thing. Then I went to my blog and found that 3 people had joined. Now it's at 4! Thank you Kristin, Evan, Sonny, and Courtney :) Oh, and Junaid too (isn't a follower but reads it). So that just made me happier than I already was.
The final thing that happened....... I was meeting Evan at 5 to get some dinner at Watterson, so I went and worked out before that with Angelo and then walked with him to his building. While I was about to say goodbye to Angelo, Evan called me and said that Kristin and KK were gonna join us for dinner. I loved that!!! It was like a small group dinner! Lol. For those of you who don't know, small group is a bible study that meets in the dorms. It's open to whoever is interested. So yeah.... We all went to dinner, ate (obviously), and talked about stuff. This part of my day was just what I needed to start the second half of the semester off.
Then it was time for work. And this is where less of a story takes place. I am impatient. It is extremely hard for me to wait around for something to happen. I just have trouble doing it. Maybe it was the aggravation of work, or maybe the pounding headache that I had. Either way, I started to think that I should just come right out and say it. Like for real, what is the point of keeping this in? Oh I know. Because it isn't the right time. And there is still so much left to learn. At this point, I'm sure most of you are wondering what the heck I am talking about. Let's just say that only a select few would be able to know. But for those who don't, do you understand where I'm coming from? What's the difference between now, or 6 months from now. I don't see one. Because if it's meant to happen, then it will happen. But as I write this, I start to reazlie that it would NOT be a good idea. I just wanna let this out!!!!! Anyway, before I go on too much longer and continue to confuse you, I will jump to one last comment.
The titles of my posts usually refer to lyrics of a song or the song itself. Just thought I would let you know that because I am gonna start posting the song and artist at the end of every blog entry. What a way to end this right?!?!?!?
One of Those Days - Joshua Radin
The final thing that happened....... I was meeting Evan at 5 to get some dinner at Watterson, so I went and worked out before that with Angelo and then walked with him to his building. While I was about to say goodbye to Angelo, Evan called me and said that Kristin and KK were gonna join us for dinner. I loved that!!! It was like a small group dinner! Lol. For those of you who don't know, small group is a bible study that meets in the dorms. It's open to whoever is interested. So yeah.... We all went to dinner, ate (obviously), and talked about stuff. This part of my day was just what I needed to start the second half of the semester off.
Then it was time for work. And this is where less of a story takes place. I am impatient. It is extremely hard for me to wait around for something to happen. I just have trouble doing it. Maybe it was the aggravation of work, or maybe the pounding headache that I had. Either way, I started to think that I should just come right out and say it. Like for real, what is the point of keeping this in? Oh I know. Because it isn't the right time. And there is still so much left to learn. At this point, I'm sure most of you are wondering what the heck I am talking about. Let's just say that only a select few would be able to know. But for those who don't, do you understand where I'm coming from? What's the difference between now, or 6 months from now. I don't see one. Because if it's meant to happen, then it will happen. But as I write this, I start to reazlie that it would NOT be a good idea. I just wanna let this out!!!!! Anyway, before I go on too much longer and continue to confuse you, I will jump to one last comment.
The titles of my posts usually refer to lyrics of a song or the song itself. Just thought I would let you know that because I am gonna start posting the song and artist at the end of every blog entry. What a way to end this right?!?!?!?
One of Those Days - Joshua Radin
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Into the Fire
Hey everyone!!! (Not sure who everyone is, seeing that I have no followers....but anyway.....) I am now back at school since Spring Break is over. The plan was to tell you all everything that happen from Tuesday on, but I don't really have the patience or the desire to do so. Lol. So what I will talk about is TODAY!!!
It is Sunday. I am back in my dorm, chillin, reading my bible, and just resting. I am so happy to be back. Don't get me wrong, seeing my friends back home never lets me down, but there was something I was missing...... But now that I am back everything is back to normal. And when I say normal, I don't mean it in a good way.
The week before spring break was the worst!!! Not because of what I did or did not do, but because of the stupid thing we call emotion or feeling. I am an emotional guy. Always have been. But it is not a good thing!!! At first it was like "yeah, I let my feelings out and people love that. My feelings are so strong for this thing and that's awesome." But I don't feel that way this time. Because last week I was sad..... And right now I am sad. I can't really go into detials. Not yet at least..... One day, but many from right now, I will tell you why I was so sad. But for right now, all you need to know is that I was sad, am sad, and might be sad for a little while. But the thing with me is that I don't always show my true emotion. Like many people, I can easily hide how I am truly feeling. Whenever I am with my friends, or anyone for that matter, I don't always show them that I am hurting inside because I know that only puts a damper on the mood and makes me look like a baby. So I hold it in and hope that I can make it through. I realize that I am rambling so I am gonna stop. I promise to blog about something amazing that happened next time.
Excuse my lameness =P
Into the Fire - Thirteen Senses
It is Sunday. I am back in my dorm, chillin, reading my bible, and just resting. I am so happy to be back. Don't get me wrong, seeing my friends back home never lets me down, but there was something I was missing...... But now that I am back everything is back to normal. And when I say normal, I don't mean it in a good way.
The week before spring break was the worst!!! Not because of what I did or did not do, but because of the stupid thing we call emotion or feeling. I am an emotional guy. Always have been. But it is not a good thing!!! At first it was like "yeah, I let my feelings out and people love that. My feelings are so strong for this thing and that's awesome." But I don't feel that way this time. Because last week I was sad..... And right now I am sad. I can't really go into detials. Not yet at least..... One day, but many from right now, I will tell you why I was so sad. But for right now, all you need to know is that I was sad, am sad, and might be sad for a little while. But the thing with me is that I don't always show my true emotion. Like many people, I can easily hide how I am truly feeling. Whenever I am with my friends, or anyone for that matter, I don't always show them that I am hurting inside because I know that only puts a damper on the mood and makes me look like a baby. So I hold it in and hope that I can make it through. I realize that I am rambling so I am gonna stop. I promise to blog about something amazing that happened next time.
Excuse my lameness =P
Into the Fire - Thirteen Senses
Monday, March 7, 2011
Missing You
So right now I am on spring break!!!!!! It has been good so far. On the Friday I got back, I went to my friend Junaid's house. We went to TB to get some food, then went back to his house and just chilled. I loved hanging with him cause I got to fill him in on all the emotional rollercoaters I have ridden since the last time I saw him and because he knows exactly how to make me feel better.
On Saturday I got to see one of my best friends, Matt Gliebe!!!!! :) It was so awesome. We played football in the nasty weather with Sonny, Dumiter, Michael, Greg, Ben, Gil, Radar, and Emit. It was an amazing time!!!! Then that night, I hung out with Dumiter for a little while and got to catch up with him. Again I also filled everybody in on what was going on with me in college and all of my emotion. They always love to hear what has changed since the last time. So Saturday was great.
Then came Sunday. Usually Sundays are horrible!!! Except for church, I don't do anything. But this time, I hung out with my friend George. We watched Grown Ups which was one of the funniest movies I've seen in a long time. After chillin wit him, I went back to the Nagler's, where I stay during breaks, and just chilled till like 3AM. Then I slept :)
Now it's Monday. I am going to see a movie with my boy Michael LahLah La. We are gonna see The Adjustment Bureau which looks like it will be an awesome movie.
So I guess that's it for now. I am really missing ISU tho. As crazy as it sounds, I am counting down the days till I go back. I have a lot of "things" that I need to do before the end of the school year. I shall be back with more posts much later in the week.
BYE!!!!!!! =D
Missing You - Tyler Hilton
On Saturday I got to see one of my best friends, Matt Gliebe!!!!! :) It was so awesome. We played football in the nasty weather with Sonny, Dumiter, Michael, Greg, Ben, Gil, Radar, and Emit. It was an amazing time!!!! Then that night, I hung out with Dumiter for a little while and got to catch up with him. Again I also filled everybody in on what was going on with me in college and all of my emotion. They always love to hear what has changed since the last time. So Saturday was great.
Then came Sunday. Usually Sundays are horrible!!! Except for church, I don't do anything. But this time, I hung out with my friend George. We watched Grown Ups which was one of the funniest movies I've seen in a long time. After chillin wit him, I went back to the Nagler's, where I stay during breaks, and just chilled till like 3AM. Then I slept :)
Now it's Monday. I am going to see a movie with my boy Michael LahLah La. We are gonna see The Adjustment Bureau which looks like it will be an awesome movie.
So I guess that's it for now. I am really missing ISU tho. As crazy as it sounds, I am counting down the days till I go back. I have a lot of "things" that I need to do before the end of the school year. I shall be back with more posts much later in the week.
BYE!!!!!!! =D
Missing You - Tyler Hilton
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Feeling A Moment
You know when you are really looking forward to a day and nothing could change that feeling? Yeah. Tuesday was that day for me. The reason I was looking forward to Tuesday was because of small group. I had a crumby couple of days and I knew that this day would change it all for me.Instead of studying the bible this week, it was a time to just chill, do homework, and watch a movie. I really loved it!!!!! I love hanging with Rob, Kristin, Jonathan, Rae, Evan, and Katie. Since I am new to the group, I am getting to know them as each week goes by. Getting to know people is something I love. Right now it's not all that personal, but you can't rush those kinds of things. People have to know that you are trustworthy in order to let you in. But I am satisfied right now. God has given me exactly what I wanted and things are only looking up from here.
On a completely different note.... You know when there are SOOOOO many things that you want to say but it isn't the right time to say it??? OMG! There are so many things on my mind right now and I can't really do much about it. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I know that it's really bothering me. Why must I have so much to say?
"Why don't you come right out and say it? Even if the words are gonna hurt we're better off this way." Well you know what Relient K, sometimes you can't do that!!!!
But anyways.... It was a great night and I look forward to many more nights like this one. PEACE!
Feeling a Moment - Feeder
On a completely different note.... You know when there are SOOOOO many things that you want to say but it isn't the right time to say it??? OMG! There are so many things on my mind right now and I can't really do much about it. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I know that it's really bothering me. Why must I have so much to say?
"Why don't you come right out and say it? Even if the words are gonna hurt we're better off this way." Well you know what Relient K, sometimes you can't do that!!!!
But anyways.... It was a great night and I look forward to many more nights like this one. PEACE!
Feeling a Moment - Feeder
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