Sunday, June 19, 2011

Breathe In Deeper Now

Hey everyone.....

So I realize that I haven't done a very good job at keeping up with posts and letting you all know whats going down at LT and I'm sorry for that. I now realize what "hard" truly is. I can't seem to manage my time well at all. Work is always a buzz kill. Hanging with people is great but it's hard to coordinate schedules sometimes. LT is extra frustrating and I most definitely was not expecting all of this.

The truth is..... I MISS ISU!!! For the past week all I have been talking about is how I want to go back to school. Sure, LT is a blast and I am loving it even with all of the trials. But there was something about my first year of college that made everything so much better even if there were many trials and sufferings there as well.

There are two awesome things that I want to share with all of you though. Well actually one since they are pretty much the same thing. So last Wednesday, for project day we had an 8 hour God time at the Newport News Park. Going into 8 hours I figured it would be impossible. I have never spent that much time with God. And during that time we were told to fast as well so we skipped breakfast and lunch. If you didn't know, I get sick VERY easily when I don't eat anything so I wasn't sure I would make it. But I realized that God will always suffice. I just prayed when I got hungry or anything like that and He totally took care of me. So I realized that if I truly depend on God to help me He will come through.

SECOND! Ever stop to look at God's beautiful creation or look at the animals running around as if it were the first day for them in the world??? Yes! That is one of the many ways that I spent time with God on Wednesday. I did a lot of walking and got to see MANY beautiful things. Saw many squirrels. Saw deer eating. Saw the way that the trees block just enough sunlight to make your walk comfortable. Crossed a bridge over this body of water as the angled sunlight hit it perfectly. I did a lot of reflecting and God's creation finally became something that was evident and oh so amazing. I am grateful that God gave me the opportunity to see what He has created.

Just a little of how amazing God has been. Anyway, I am tired and will stop writing for now. I will most likely post a little sooner next time at an earlier time so I can write more and think clearly.

God Bless! :)

Do Not Move - David Crowder Band

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Help Is On the Way

OH! MY! GOSH! It has been toooo long!

So I have been at LT (Leadership Training) for two weeks. It has been so awesome! I am having such a great time having a summer dedicated to God. So what exactly have I done while being here? Well we have 3 scheduled things each week. We have one session on Monday night where we worship and have a speaker. I love those nights because worship is SOOOO amazing and gaining more knowledge about the word is what I want to do. I will skip past Wednesday and go to Thursday since it is the same thing as Monday. We go to two different churches though which is what supplies the difference. Monday night at Grace Church and Thursday night at Hilltop. But the busiest day would have to be Wednesday. PROJECT DAY! This is a day devoted to serving, God time, and just doing whatever will help us grow with God and with ourselves. I am always so tired after our day is over but it is so worth it. This past Wednesday my group went to a church to help like clean up and stuff. Once we got there, we split into even smaller groups so we could get certain tasks done. My group had to pull weeds and totally destroy this HUGE dirt pile. We didn't finish but I love how much we got done especially when it was SOOOOO hot and the bugs in there were absolutely ridiculous. I also got a chance to get to know the other peeps.

Three days??? THAT'S IT???? Not exactly. While being here we all have jobs. There are hotel jobs and then there is McDonald's. I work at McDonald's. Oh "hahaha Brandon works at McDonald's." Maybe McDonald's isn't the place that you want to make a career...... Or maybe it is! If you are like my boss Mike, you can make a lot of money for what you do. And if you think McDonald's is easy you are dead wrong. When it is busy there isn't enough time to BREATHE. All you can do is keep going back and forth making sure that you have enough food and that the customers are being satisfied. So anyone who wants to knock McDonald's doesn't know a single thing about it. But it has been a good and bad experience. I hate having to work 8 hour days and I don't like getting up early. BUT, I like most of the people and I find that work can be fun as long as you make it that way. So it has been an experience to remember and I am looking forward to having God do great things through me there. Even if it's just being a role model of good work ethic :)

Next on the list...... MY ROOMMATES!!!!! So I live with 7 other people. Harold, Alec, Evan (who are all from ISU), Josh, J.D, Bo, and Vineet (who are not from ISU). It has been amazing AND a struggle to live with so many people. In my room is Harold, Vineet, and Bo. In the other room is Alec, Evan, Josh, and J.D. I share a bed with Harold. OH YEAH! We all share a bed with another person. It isn't too bad sleeping with another person. I feel like Harold and I don't get in each others way or anything like that. Anyway, I really like these guys. I will be honest and say I feel like I am not that close with two of my roommates. I don't say this to be mean, I say it because it is just evident. I don't want it to be this way. I want us all to be a family that just clicks. We still have 8 more weeks so I feel like that can all be fixed. Another thing with having so many roommates is sharing the food. We get 240 per week for food and though that seems like a good amount its really nothing for EIGHT HUNGRY GUYS!!!!! Ha. So the first week we sorta ran out of food pretty fast. It was kinda bad. We had to wait an extra day to go shopping again as well because Josh threw out our card thinking we would get another one. That was funny. But not funny at the same time do to some events that occurred because of it. So living with people has been a struggle but I am also loving it :)

The biggest update of all..... How is my relationship with God? Well, when I got here I expected to just have this HUGE desire to be with God ALL of the time and I thought I would grow right a way. Wrong. I got here and found that chillin with all of these amazing people is what I want to do. Yes, I have had good God time but not enough. I need to be more consistent and remain focused on why I am truly here. God is doing a good job at showing me certain things and making sure that I know He is here with me. I have enjoyed every quiet time that we are told to go out and have. I feel that when they tell us to go out and spend time with God I am all for it and I rock it! But when it's up to me, I am really on and off and can't find a way to be in the word all of the time. God is really testing me this summer. Trying to make it so I can find out what I am truly made of. Sometimes I hate that God is letting certain things happen to me but I also know that He will not give me anything I cannot handle. So I am trying to take each thing on and beat it. So God and I are good but we could be much better.

So that is what's going on as of now. Since I told you my roommate situation and my normal week, I won't have to repeat everything but there will probably be a little of each topic to go along with every blog from here on out. Or it will just be something amazing that God is doing in my life.

Thanks for reading!!!! =D

Help Is On the Way - Rise Against

Saturday, May 14, 2011

You Hold Me In Your Hands

I AM STRESSING OUT!!!!!

I leave in six days for Virginia Beach and I still have a lot of money to raise. Sure, I still have like 7 follow-up phones calls to make as well as 9 'yes' responses to helping me, but I am still in the dark with all of that. I have no idea how much I will have by the end of the week. This is really scary. I have to pray more. I am doing a horrible job with trusting that God will come through. He calls us not to worry and that's all I am doing. Ugh......

Everything - Lifehouse 

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Break Away From Everything

Shout out to my peeps!!!!

I am on Summer break and I could not be happier right now. I thought that leaving school was gonna be this depressing moment followed by consistent days of depression. Yes, that is how sad I thought leaving school would be. SO GLAD I WAS WRONG! Being back with all of my friends not having any worries is absolutely great. My friends are so amazing and I don't know how I made it at ISU without any of them by my side. But that is part of growing up. Gotta leave the people you love at some point even though it's gonna suck. But being back is such a blessing and is something that I didn't even know I needed.

LT in 10 days!!!!!!! How amazing is that? I am so ready to go and do amazing things. I am kinda getting back into my old ways of being lazy with my faith. I really want to go to Virginia beach while being strong. I don't want to be in the weak state that I am currently in. I am just glad that God doesn't give up on people. Otherwise a lot of us would be in trouble! 

I love how God can use things to show you what was there all along. I just want all of you to remember that sometimes good things can come out of the worst. It is just how it works out sometimes. So the next time you are feeling down about ANYTHING, remember that there is always more to come. Expect the unexpected!!!!

Sorry for jumping around..... There are so many things that are running through my head that I continue to bounce back and forth. There are MANY things that I could still say but I am gonna shut up and leave this post as is. I mean, it is 2:06 AM. TIME TO WATCH A MOVIE!!!!!

That is all I have for now. Keep it real :)

Break - Three Days Grace

Monday, May 2, 2011

No, I Can't Let Go of You

It has been way too long peeps..... So what is going on in my life now?

First I will start with the end of school. So I go home in like 4 days and I am both excited and extra sad. I am excited because of LT! I can't wait to spend the summer growing in my faith, getting to know the others that are going with me, and just being in a such an awesome place as I do both of those things. It is gonna be a great summer and I am ready for it. But I am really sad too. Why? Because I am leaving so many people. ISU has become my home. I mean, when I go back to Skokie I LOVE seeing everyone but something doesn't feel the same. So I am gonna miss so many people from school. And of course I am gonna miss that special someone. Yall know who I am talking about. Ha. I would say that it's affecting me for real. Just the thought of going the whole summer....... Yeah, just a lot to handle. But I know that God will help me get past it and give me a heart that is completely set on Him.

So, speaking of that special someone....... Ha. Yeah, things are good. She obviously knows and there is a 90% chance that she will be seeing this post at some point. I don't post these things to make you feel awkward (even though you're not an awkward person)! Just for the record. But yeah..... It has been like two weeks since she said she didn't return the same feelings and I have come A LONG way. I am doing so much better. I am completely satisfied with our friendship and just glad that my feelings for her really changed nothing between us. Things are just great right now. Sure, there are times when I am feeling down about it, but we all go through things like this. I truly believe that I get so down because my feelings were so unexpected. I really thought that God was calling me to her because something was meant to happen. I guess that's what happens when you go all in. The more you sacrifice, the more you have to lose. But anyways........ It is something that I can handle (right.......). If you ever want the full details of what I have been going through, just ask; I will most likely be willing to tell you.

So what else is there? Since it's been a while since my last post I feel like I need to post a really long one. Hmmm..... So it is finals week and I am once again sick for the second straight semester. Like really? Right when I'm about to take 4 exams? It's whatever. I am gonna tough it out and soon I will be home (joy and sadness). I am sitting here writing this and it is currently 2:49 AM. I mean, if I'm sick, shouldn't I be sleeping???? I'm dumb and I accept that :)

So I guess that is all I have for now. I will try to keep up with posting sooner so I get important things written. I will def keep you all posted once I get to LT. I can't wait to share everything that God is doing once I'm there.

NIGHT YALL!!!!!!! =D

Can't Let Go - Landon Pigg

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I Wanna Be With You

So my song is no longer going on facebook.... I am just gonna throw it out all together. Yeah..... Yesterday I talked with the girl and the feelings are not mutual. That is is pretty much all I will say about that.

On to other things.... I shouldn't even be blogging right now. Why? Because I have physics right now but I am in my dorm room. I literally got to the building, walked up the stairs, got 10 feet from the door, and everything inside me said that I would not be able to make it through class today. I ALWAYS go to physics. Even though that class drags like no other and I always want to leave, I fight through because college is all about going to class even when you don't want to. The one time I didn't go was because I was doing a lab FOR physics! So I see it like I have never skipped this class for real. I am still going to English and my criminal justice class. Today is just not a good day.... Wow!!! Did I just say that? Isn't it Tuesday? But Tuesday's are the best days. Well this isn't good.

I am still happy about small group. I love the people there. I have gotten really close with Evan and Jonathan which makes me really happy. And I always love talking about God. Rob and Kristin do a great job with small group. But Rob won't be there tonight due to being on his HONEYMOON!!!!! Yes, Rob just got married on Saturday. I am so happy for him! He found a girl, he married that girl, and now he is gonna have an amazing life with that girl. I wish them both the best :)

I shall end you with a quote/question. I made this up on the way back to my dorm. "If you take months to build up a house that someone destroys in just one day; was it worth it?" Ponder that......

Apology - Safetysuit

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Hold Your Breath Till It's Over

Again, I am starting this blog with very little to say but I expect to think of things as I go.

So tonight is the All Campus Party. It is pretty much part II to All Campus Worship. I am most likely going to that but I am trying to find someone to go with. As you all know, I am socially awkward so I am trying to make sure that I show up with someone so I am not standing in the corner like a loner. I am sorta excited to finally have something to do on the weekend. It's supposed to be nice tomorrow for FLICKERBALL!!!! But I shall focus on tonight for now....

So I made a song yesterday (or today) at like 1 AM. I didn't finish creating the music, writing the lyrics, or recording me singing it until like 2:45 AM. Ha. It was great!!! It was just a song about my feelings for someone. It will be on facebook soon but I have to make sure that the timing is not wrong. Cause putting it on facebook would mean that the person I am talking about could see it. It's a bit nerve-wracking because I have never openly sang in front of people. I sing in groups where my voice cannot be separated. Ha. Btw, my song is called Chase (You Are the One). Just thought I would throw that out there.

So yeah..... That is all for now. I will hopefully be back with new developments soon..... ;)

B-Money OUT!

We Build Then We Break - The Fray